it has been way to long. i feel as if i said that in my last post as well. i must get better about this. i let life slip away one day at a time and do not make time to share life on here. forgive me. bear with me. life has been tiresome for the past week and a half. i feel as if we have gone backwards and that we are redoing month one all over again. it is hard to find time to shower these days, much less create a blog update. while Loudon has yet to "sleep through the night" [whatever number that really is]... he was sleeping for about 6 hours followed by four more hours [basically waking up once around four am]. my body had adjusted and life was grand. i looked forward to my five or so hours of rest and never once minded getting woken up to that sweet cry. however, last thursday he started waking up every two hours. he never...ever did that...even as a one week old. it got better for a few days....waking up every three hours. however, last night we were up three times. it is tiring. nights have become long again, and therefore i try to grab a little nap here and there during the day [which is also difficult to do]. i am chalking it up to a growth spurt. i hope it's only a growth spurt. this all does have a silver lining. i am so thankful to the Lord that i am able to nurse him at each of these night feedings. for over two months i was giving him a bottle and pumping, however the Lord is so gracious and finally Loudon and i got on the same page with nursing. it has been such a blessing. when push comes to shove.... these few moments with my sweet boy in the darkness of the night.... these moments are so precious and i would not trade them for the world. each feeding is worth it and i am reminded of that everytime he wraps his little arm around my neck while he sucks his thumb.
kendall and i were recently blessed with a new computer from my wonderful parents [my mac was over five years old and the pinwheel of death was commonplace on the screen]. Loudon and i took some pictures on it. this was my favorite:
tomorrow is monday. i know most people experience dread when it comes to even thinking about monday. i am honestly excited. it is like a fresh new start. a chance to accomplish a new set of tasks. chores around the house, blogging, sewing.... these are things that i am looking forward to accomplishing this week. bring. it. on.
Elizabeth used to do that when she was going through a growth spurt or teething. If it's a growth spurt it seemed like it would help with Elizabeth to make an effort to nurse her more often during the day to fill her up as much as possible. (I stay at home with the girls, I don't know if you work or not) Sometimes I would even wake her up right before I went to bed to nurse her (she might go to bed at 8 and I would stay up later) so I could get a longer chunk of sleep. I am glad that to are cherishing this time with your son. I had a really hard time with Elizabeth. I had really bad PPD and it was hard enjoying that phase of her life. But now she is 2 and it breaks my heart how fast she is growing up!
ReplyDeleteBrooke, thank you so much for the advice/help. i have been trying to nurse more frequently while he is awake hoping it will help. i will be going back to work in a few weeks...but for now i am still at home, which helps. hopefully this is a growth spurt and it will come and go without too many restless nights. i know that this precious time will be over soon...so i am learning to cherish it. best of luck to you as you are once again in this wonderful stage with Alice!
ReplyDeleteyou're amazing! i know this feeling. you know for me one of the hardest things is getting back to sleep after we are up for one of her feeds. praying for you and little man! i hope it gets better..
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