Saturday, August 20, 2011

saturday

life for the past two weeks has been a whirlwind. work is going well. waking up at 5:15 am....well you tell me how you think that is going. the days fly by at work [which i am so thankful for]. Loudon seems to be doing wonderfully with his g-mommy during the days. he has recently fallen in love with his jumper, his walker, and trying to grab anything you are holding in your hand. this past week g-mommy has been at the beach, therefore his aunt KK watched him monday and tuesday. his grandma flew down from Virginia and has spent the remainder of the week with him. while i know she came down mostly to spend time with her grandson, it has been so wonderful having my mother here.




saturday was an interesting day. i am using interesting because i am still uncertain what word truly fits the information we were told. let me start from the beginning.





there is this picture in my mind of a just born baby laying on his mother's chest starting wide-eyes into her eyes. that never happened with Loudon. we would get little peeks every now and then, but he rarely opened his eyes the first few weeks of life. about three weeks old he began opening his eyes more consistently. however, he never seemed to fully open his eyes. we just figured he had little eyes, being that both his father and I have smaller eyes as well. his right eye seemed to open bigger than his left. it never bothered us....we felt it was an endearing physical characteristic. i would be lying if i said i never compared my friend's babies eyes to Loudon. I would think "I wonder when Loudon will really open his eyes wide?"





At his two month appointment our pediatrician took a look at his left eye. he did not seem too concerned, therefore just made a note to check it again at his four month appointment. At his four month appointment our pediatrician explained how he was concerned with Loudon being able to see how of that left eye, being that his eyelid was almost covering his pupil. he referred us to an eye doctor for a second opinion. saturday morning we went to our eye doctor appointment. Loudon was diagnosed with congenital ptosis in both eyes (his left eye is worse than in the right). having never heard of this before, we have spend the day researching [which i love to do...being the librarian that i am]. in a nutshell, congenital ptosis is when the eyelid muscles are not fully developed, thus not able to open without difficulty. we have noticed that Loudon tilts his head back to look at things, as well as raises his eyebrows frequently, both indicators of congenial ptosis. the only means of correction is through surgery. our doctor here has performed this surgery numerous times, but being that Loudon is so young, he has referred us to the Emory Eye Center of Emory Hospital. our doctor did say that the doctors at Emory could decide that Loudon's condition is not severe enough for surgery at this time. if that is the case, we would be able to wait a few years and have the surgery done here when Loudon is a few years older. the doctor did dilate Loudon's eyes to see if this condition has affect his eyesight. thankfully, it has not. we found out yesterday that our appointment with the doctor at Emory is September 14th at 9:00am. at this time, we just ask for your prayers. while surgery seems inevitable, and is the only means that the doctors treat congential ptosis, we know that our all powerful God is in the healing business. we will continue to keep yall updated on this entire journey!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

tomorrow


tomorrow has been a day that has been pushed to the back of my mind for some time now. underneath diapers, pieces of fabrics, tears, giggles and burp cloths august 3, 2011 has been buried for the past four months. tomorrow is the day that i kiss my little man goodbye and watch as he begins spending his days without me.
tomorrow i am going back to work.
working in a school has its advantages, one being summer vacation. having a baby the last week in March also has its advantages [taking the rest of the school year off for maternity leave]. i am grateful that i was able to have four months with him. i have been able to hear him laugh for the first time, flip over from his stomach to his back, see him sit up on his own for about 5 seconds at a time, discover his hands, feet, mouth, colors, patterns, and his toys. i am so thankful for the care he will be receiving...one of his grandmothers will take care of him, which is a near perfect situation [the perfect situation being me staying at home with him]. i have been spending the last few days doing little else except be with him.... soaking him in. we read, we play, we laugh, we watch "chicka, chicka, boom boom" video about 20 times a day, we listen to the beatles, and we nap. i guess i have sorta gotten attached to him.
i decided last week i wanted to make him a quilt before i started back to work. i finished it in three days, and i have to say that i am so proud of it. it was my first attempt at machine quilting [i have only ever made tie quilts]. so, i guess you could say that it is technically my first quilt. i was not sure where i was going to go with the colors, but i found this awesome robot flannel print and i knew that this was going to be the foundation for the quilt. anyone who knows me at all knows that i am obsessed with earth tones [browns, greens, oranges]. however, i wanted to pick colors i knew Loudon would love. so far he has loved his quilt [and i measure his love for it by how much he stares at it and drools].


[awesomeness]


[quilt front]


[quilt back]